the Great Depressions and the Tooth Fairies

When I hear people screaming about how fake their friends are , I smile gently because god has given me true friends who had stood for me in the worst times of my life.. But my smile fades when I hear people asking the question how sincere we are to our friends.. In that case,I don't think my track record looks good..I feel guilty about this a lot..I tries to be sincere but I feel like its not enough..I feel like I have done nothing to them when compared to what they done to me..

And , How horrible is me??? Well, read down to see how horrible I am...

My friends ringed me up a thousand times, last year, but I didn't answer their calls..And why exactly did I do that?? Because I didn't felt like speaking to them.. The ongoing depressions in my life had made me exhausted..So, whenever they called me, I let the phone ring.. But my friends were not like me.. Despite the total avoidance from my side, they kept on ringing me up and I, as usual, for my pathetic reasons, kept on avoiding them....

Now, it seems like the The Great Depression period has taken a break.. I won't say it ended because Life is never out of pain and I'm expecting something worse than the previous depressions to hit me soon..Thats how my life has been for past 5 years.. When a crisis ends, something worse than the previous one hits me below the belt..Oops sorry!! I veered off from the topic... Coming back to our point..Now that I am in a normal state of mind, I wanted to call them and apologise to them for what I did.. But I'm not getting the guts to do that..So, I postpone it everytime..I know I should apologise to them or else I will lose the biggest treasures of my life.. I hope tooth fairy would come to me today, and give me some courage..Won't you tooth fairy??

"An Evening" that caught my eye

I came across this poem in the Internet.. Its a famous poem of Gwendolyn Brooks.. It was hard to let go of it .. So, I decided to post it on my blog...And what I feel about this poem?? Well, simple , and short but so deeply meaningful that its hard to not go 'WOW' at the author's talent..

An Evening by Gwendolyn Brooks

A sunset's mounded cloud;
A diamond evening-star;
Sad blue hills afar;
Love in his shroud.

Scarcely a tear to shed;
Hardly a word to say;
The end of a summer day;
Sweet Love dead

Jai Jai Shakespeare

I just don't know why my friends say so?? That William Shakespeare's plays and poems are not edible..They say its very boring, too difficult to understand.. etc.. etc..

I don't understand how they can choose Robert frost and William Wordsworth ..over The Shakespeare.. I agree, Shakespeare's language is not exactly meant for a layman but that is why it is the best.. Its highly poetical.. Its highly adorable .. Something that an anybody cannot imitate.. And that is what makes him the Shakespeare..

Today, In the afternoon, I was reading Shakespeare's poem from the internet and God! it made me cry... The beauty of those words is incredible.. Its just a miracle.. Its a sadness to see many people not being able to grasp the true value of Shakespeare's works... I'm not planning to put down my friends views..They are right to some extent... I love simple, yet deeply meaningful poems of robert frost and william wordsworth ...

 

 Still, in my heart , Shakesphere reigns forever....Jai Jai Shakespeare!!

{Given Below is The poem of the Shakesphere that I read today...}

13 / 7 / 2013

 Today, was a gloomy day..The morning started off with a rain and by afternoon , some amount of sunshine reached the ground but now, in the night, its raining again...Quite like the state of my mind right now...

Yesterday, was my D-day. The day of my entrance exam, CLAT. I reached on time at the test center (@ sharp 1.50pm) and I finished the paper fine. When I came out of the examination hall, I had a smile lingering on my face but it didn't stay there for long because everyone found the paper to be average and that is what is going to be upsetting..The cutoffs will be high..All those who had mugged up some Gk and who had attempted previous year's papers would be getting awesome marks, I'm sure.. But others would suffer...Not because their scores are low but because, this time, 5-6 marks difference could change your life as the cutoffs are going to be that close.......

I wish that the paper had been tough.. If so, I would have had a better chance at top 5 law schools... So, Now, I wish for a miracle to happen.. But miracle is something that won't happen, espectially when you wish for it..

There you have it.. My mind's state of affairs..Gloomy, sad, depressed..A little bit of sunshine shines through the dense clouds when I'm with my mom..I tried to get over the depressed mood by watching a movie this morning, but I couldn't even put up with it for a half an hour...Nevertheless, there's a bit of change coming through..For the last one month, I didn't bother to put a facial or to scrub my face or even to clean it thoroughly..Only thing, I did from my personal hygiene list was - brushing and bathing...And Result?? Don't even bother to ask.. Black spots and tan has taken over the possession of my face and worse is that fine, clear moustache on my face.. I bet the boys in my class would have been jealous of me..   Anyway, Today, I put an end to my Monk-Life. I bleached, shampooed my hair and went for a facial.After seeing the transformation in me, my mom looked into my eyes with pity, and said, "Oh! I didn't realise that you were so worried about your exam, my daughter!!"