When I hear people screaming about how fake their friends are , I smile gently because god has given me true friends who had stood for me in the worst times of my life.. But my smile fades when I hear people asking the question how sincere we are to our friends.. In that case,I don't think my track record looks good..I feel guilty about this a lot..I tries to be sincere but I feel like its not enough..I feel like I have done nothing to them when compared to what they done to me..
And , How horrible is me??? Well, read down to see how horrible I am...
My friends ringed me up a thousand times, last year, but I didn't answer their calls..And why exactly did I do that?? Because I didn't felt like speaking to them.. The ongoing depressions in my life had made me exhausted..So, whenever they called me, I let the phone ring.. But my friends were not like me.. Despite the total avoidance from my side, they kept on ringing me up and I, as usual, for my pathetic reasons, kept on avoiding them....
Now, it seems like the The Great Depression period has taken a break.. I won't say it ended because Life is never out of pain and I'm expecting something worse than the previous depressions to hit me soon..Thats how my life has been for past 5 years.. When a crisis ends, something worse than the previous one hits me below the belt..Oops sorry!! I veered off from the topic... Coming back to our point..Now that I am in a normal state of mind, I wanted to call them and apologise to them for what I did.. But I'm not getting the guts to do that..So, I postpone it everytime..I know I should apologise to them or else I will lose the biggest treasures of my life.. I hope tooth fairy would come to me today, and give me some courage..Won't you tooth fairy??
And , How horrible is me??? Well, read down to see how horrible I am...
My friends ringed me up a thousand times, last year, but I didn't answer their calls..And why exactly did I do that?? Because I didn't felt like speaking to them.. The ongoing depressions in my life had made me exhausted..So, whenever they called me, I let the phone ring.. But my friends were not like me.. Despite the total avoidance from my side, they kept on ringing me up and I, as usual, for my pathetic reasons, kept on avoiding them....
Now, it seems like the The Great Depression period has taken a break.. I won't say it ended because Life is never out of pain and I'm expecting something worse than the previous depressions to hit me soon..Thats how my life has been for past 5 years.. When a crisis ends, something worse than the previous one hits me below the belt..Oops sorry!! I veered off from the topic... Coming back to our point..Now that I am in a normal state of mind, I wanted to call them and apologise to them for what I did.. But I'm not getting the guts to do that..So, I postpone it everytime..I know I should apologise to them or else I will lose the biggest treasures of my life.. I hope tooth fairy would come to me today, and give me some courage..Won't you tooth fairy??
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